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02/28/03
I feel... so Insognificant right now... I read SOOO many of
these online comics and I have come to the realization that... I suck. that I'm never going to get Yan-chan anyfarther than
it is... and even though I have acepted this truth. I'm still doing this thing... uselessly... Aplesprite is the only one
who has ever said anything about Yan-chan to me. So I will continue this... I mean it's not like I don't enjoy this. But no
one's exactly helping me feel better about this. I mean think About this. I come home and have 2 hours before I need to go
to sleep. I'm exaughsted. I have almost no time to do Yan-chan anymore... and yet I'm some how still managing to do this even
though I get ABSOLUTLY no apreciation for this. (Aplesprite is the exeption) *sigh* oh well the good thing is. I have gotten
1000 visits. I still feel so insognificant.... my drawing suck. Yan-chan sucks. Why do I bother torturing you people with
my crap.
~Michiru~
02/21/03
well to start this all off I have NO VOICE....
mew.... heh. I had a sore throat for 4 days and I lost my voice yesterday and haven't gotten it back yet. YOu shoudl hear
me laughing it sounds like I'm hyperventilating since no sound can come out.
Heh... a little insite on what it's like.
Yesterday. We had this GREAT Guest artist show up... well I had NO VOICE... so guess what I got to do well the rest of Vocal
3 was having fun singing there buts off.... that's right. I was sitting on the side watching them being overly sad. reminded
me of being at Dunes as a counselor and loosing my voice... but I won't ramble on right now about that. then NEXT I decided
that even if I couldn't sing I could at least listen so I sat during Fiddler on the roof rehersals (Which started tusday this
week) again sad that all I could do was watch... and do you have ANY idea how HARD it is to talk to people when you can't
speak!?!? and you don't know sign language.
today... I slept in... not something I usually do... I should have taken that
as a sign. I felt like I was going to puke but I just said "If I can make it out through today then I have the whole weekend"
so I did. I drank some warm lemanade with honey and then headed off to school. I still had no voice so once again I had to
explain SOME HOW to people that I had no voice so they wouldn't feel like I was purposly not trying to talk to them. fun fun.
then we had yet ANOTHER guest artist. Who was a writer. JOY!
^-^ only NOT joy since I couldn't physicaly ASK my questions.
I had to write it down and hope he wasn't anoyed with me holding up the paper for him to read my questions. I took a ton of
notes and then wrote him down in my bibliography. Perfect for my senor Project! ^-^
Well here you would think. Alright
day is over go home now... Nope. not for me. More torture was left. AND it didn't help that my head was pounding I couldn't
concentrate my throat was hurting even worse and my stomach was killing me pain wise. about a half an hour lator I gave up
and wrote a note to Mrs. White begging her to let me go home. She did and I was quite gratefull.
I came home and my dad
asked. "So how is you're voice" I took my thumbs and pointed down. then started shaking my hands up and down pointing down
still. (Yes it has gotten worse.) SO he decided to take me to the doctors. I sighed not exactly wanting to be going around
ANYWERE since all I wanted to do was lie in bed. ...mmm... Beeeeddddd...... anyways. We went to the doctors. and I wated patiently
for the doctor that is freinds with my uncle. (heh. my uncle knows everyone almost) and I found out that I have Lerengitus,
Tonsulitus, ANd... an ear infection in my left ear pluss my temp is 100.2... he gave me some pills to take twice a day. two
in the morning and two at night... they wont start doing anything for me for about 48 hours.
And a little insite on how
it is to not have a voice. You can't tell anyone anything. So you have to keep all thoughts in you're little head. some times
you REALLY want to be able to talk but some things you just can't write down fast enough or make people understand with you're
hands. It's like you have no say in anything unless people take the time to look at you. And some people don't want to pay
attention to you no matter how much you point or poke. and some times they also don't understand what you're trying to say
and I eventually just give up. I feel almost like this little mime.
in our theitor class wonder of wonders. We had to
sing a song for our attendence... oh THAT was fun. I had no voice to sing with. I had the perfect song to sing and everything.
but instead mrs. White had to be told by Jaz (Yes were freinds again) that I still didn't have my voice. so I had to do a
pantimime. (great) then the REST of the warm up for the class was going around greating people with the song you had sung.
heh... yah count ME OUT... *sigh* I tried my best anyways. All I could really do was put my hand to my throat and then throw
my hand out like I was singing or something but of course no sound was really coming out.
More fun... every one had to
go in a circle and sing the song they had picked with a charachter that fit the song. I walked into the circle very sad looking
stopped pointed to about half of them and then took both hands and threw them out. They laughed and claped and then I turned
back around sad once again and stood outside the circle... MAN I want my voice BACK!... oh well... at least I'm home now so
I can get some sleep...AND I can sleep in. :D
~Michiru~
02/10/03
Well it's
happy evil Monday. *sigh* oh GREAT... ah well. What can you do? I teach a bunch of little kids how to draw anime and go through
a boring day of monday classes... *sigh* mew... oh well at least I get paid tommorow... it's a measly 5 bucks... but at least
it's something I guess. my cousin has fallen in love. It's great for her... but for me I'm loosing the best freind I had since
birth... and I'm really going to miss having some one who knew EVERYTHING about me... oh well... I'm still living right? that's
always a pluss... heh... yah right.
~Michiru~
01/31/02
Ahhhhh *Big sigh* The finals and the big huge projects are finally
over... at last at long last!... the Semester is over! ... even if I don't get a semester break... still.. YAY! IT"S OVER!
ahem. anyways. as you've all been reading my OLD OLD OOOOOOOLD comics called the Bob comics I have been working on Yan-chan.
And I've been discusing future chaptors with Kat, Harmony, Kayla, and a varius other people who you will see show up lator
in some very funny ways. I'm an now up to page.... 47 and I'm working on page 48 right now. Pluss I have several chaptors
planed. So be prepared for a lot of stuff to read and look at. I should probably right down some of the stuff we have planed
or I might forget it all... heh heh... *Skips away* anyways. I'm a little curious as to why Sarah from Greyscale hasn't read
this yet or said anything about it yet... but.. *Shrug* oh well not that it really matters. *Yawn* anyways. I'll probably
be working on Yan-chan a little faster than usual now and I also have 6 pages all scaned and ready to be updated which should
give me 3 weeks to get more done. *Smile* yay!
~Silver... okay so It's really Michiru... I sould probably change this to just Michiru now shouldn't
I... heh... alright then.
~Michiru~
01/26/03
After hours of typing up all these stupid essays, protfolio pages,
and final pages I have this enormous head ache... pain killers are GoooooooooDDDD.... heh... Anyways last night I met up with
Sarah the artist of Grayscale, we traded some info and I drew in her sketchbook, the first thing that led me to her was the fact that
she had a megatokyo comic in her hands. My reaction was. OOOOOOOOO!!!! MEGATOKYO!!!! with my hands in front of me reaching towards it reaching for the comic. heh heh... Piro is an AWSOME
comic drawer. and so is Sarah. From what I've read of her comic so far it's great.
But unfortunitly I still have a LOT more work to get done before
I can even think of reading more of her comic or even Penny Arcade's comic. MAN! I only just NOW heard of the comic too... jeesh! Why am I so stinken slow at finding good online web comics..
OH! and I might start be putting Kayla's comic up soon... be warned it's a bit... dark. (She's a vampire in Yan-chan so what
do you expect) Heh... that's it.. just going on and on and on... about stuff. no ranting! YAY! (I'm not in the mood
anyways)
~Silver
01/21/03
Heh heh... I spent a few hours yesterday typing and editing all these
papers and found out that I didn't need to have them done until Thursday. Hmm... you know. I'm going to kind of give up on
Yan-chan ever really being well known or a cool Kick Ass comic... I read all these online Comics and the art work is fantastic...
pluss they know the internet better then I think I will ever know it.
I don't think Kayla needs to worry to much about people knowing ot much
about her since only my freinds read this online comic... I know I know. My art work pretty much sucks... *sigh* I'm not giving
up on it... I mean I enjoy drawing and making Yan-chan. Pluss it's fun to have a new page and go to my freinds saying "LOOK
a new page of Yan-chan!" and have them all run up and read it... it's funner though when you have several pages...
It's nice... we often have new comic pages to show each other... I'm just
the only one who puts them up on the net... and even though my art work isn't fantastic... I'm not changing it to get more
people. SO to bad peeps!
~Silver~
01/20/02
Hey I updated today on time. I even drew another Yan-chan Page... (you won'y read it for a while
but it's up there) Now REMEMBER this page is JUST for ranting. so that's all it's going to have... people don't have to read
me complaining about stuff.
Alright a little complaining about my artwork... JEESH I suck at it! I'm a horrible
comic artist. I'm mean I'm trying and sure it's getting a little better... but I still suck at it. *sigh* So I mean there's
no way I can really get myself some how up on Kick ASS webcomics so that more people would come visit... Beacuse as much as
I LOVE the fact that Yan-chan has had over 500 visits... I really don't think it matters... if no one bothers to email me...
sign my webcomic... or even GLIMPS at my forums... Role Playing Heaven Reborn hasn't been touched. Nobody emails me... Heh...
I'm starting to think it would be best if I just switched it so that the link to MY email would go to my other one. (I have several email acounts)
I don't know how many places I've put those things. And to ADD to my frustrations
Today was a day off for me and I've spent almost all day working! on my core project on homework and even chores. *sigh* It
also dosn't help that I've been in pure and utter pain the ENTIRE day... I woke up this morning and just SLIGHTLY tilted my
head to the right. BAM tons of pain goes running up and down my neck. and it's been like this ALL day... no matter how many
pain killers I take or how much ice or massaging I try to do... it still hurt's me like when I had jumped wrong and taken
out my knee.
Heh... it's odd... me complaining and ranting on here... is not what I do in real life...
IN fact... I don't usually complain. BUT... I am here. *shrug* some of this stuff is rather repetitive. waaa waa no one emails
me. waa waa nobody visits. Heh... I mean Yah it's true... but it does get kind of anoying... so I guess maybee this should
just be where I put the LONG what happened today thing down. anyways. I'm going to lie down and see if I can get my neck to
stop killing me. Ja-ne! Mina san!
~Silver
10/17/03
Alright well then! starting out I'm going to just start destroying my Scanner for it is HORRIBLE!
I love the pics but the scanner never picks them up... partly it's my fault for drawing the pics to lightly and so the scanner
has problems picking it up... GRRR....
And I think I know now why about only "FOUR" people know of the existence of Yan-chan. (I'm guessing
becuse NOBODY EMAILS ME!!!!!) not to mention no one ever signs my guestbook so I have no idea. and I really don't think it
matter's HOW much I rant no one is going to email me... all I get in my Email latley is Junk mail and maybee some emails from
Harmony, Kayla or Kat. (I see them everyday so it dosn't really matter about email's) But I think the only reason is beacuse
I have only about two other people linked to my site (So that dosn't help much) I didn't have a banner for my site. the scanner
just destroys my pics. And the other reason... I have no idea. can I just sit in a corner and fall into a big mass of nothing...
no wonder I didn't email for a while... *sigh*
*Yawn* pluss in just a few weeks I'm going to be dancing and remembering
my ass of for Fiddler. let me see... Everyday about 3 to 4 hours the only day I'm NOT rehersing is on Sunday's. Pluss right
now I'm going nuts with these stupid Essays. (I HATE essays) hate hate hate hate! them!
I REALLY don't like the fact that(Valentine's day) Singles
Awarness day is coming up just next month... You know it would REALLY be great if Kaleb was real?... then I wouldn't be a
single having to be AWARE that I was single beacuse I'm not. Jason's real and so is Luke and Gin. But Kaleb and his servents...
all fake.... wa...
BUt i don't know why I'm even complaining. I did this thing out of
fun and thought. HEY if people come and visit and watch! That's just great... I don't know were this "No one visit's my site
this bites" blues. Oh well... not that it matters... I guess not many people will get to see my Angel Pick... so perhaps I
can some day sell the orriginal picture to someone... I know people have asked to by pictures of minre before... though it'll
take a while before I sell Angel.
But what really bothers me is that I HAVE a keenspace
web site. And I've seen ALL these keenspace websites that look fantastic! but I have NO IDEA how to use it! I can get the
pics on and that's about the extent of my work on it. The only good news is that I've now got over 40 pages of Yan-chan done.
*Smile* yay! and I'm working on 42 right now... TRYING to draw a little harder and make it more so noticeble. And YES this
comic is mostly just for girls... but it's also a comedy... I HOPE... it started out as inside jokes... mostly just what
my freinds and I would laugh at. it's become a little more... but yah. I'm not the only one out of my freinds doing Comics..
(There's are just not online) I should probably put there's up some how... maybee get them free Lycos sites... I'm not trusting
Keenspace untill Some one helps me... and that's going to be what?... NEVER!!!!!! *sigh* but yah... Kayla's working on a cute
Yet very disturbing (It's Kayla expect it) comic that's a stick figure guy named Angel who can go back and forth between the
3D world and then a comic with Angel and the same charachters only... um... *Sweatdrop* a guy at his school has found out
his secret and has blackmailed Angel so now Angel is the guys... hmm... play toy... I only pray that some one will save the
poor guy.
And Kat's been working on this one comic for several years. It's a
very girly comic but her art work is great. And IT's ... hmm... kind of complicated to explain considering she's changed it
so many times. SHOOT! I got to go... BYE peeps!!
~Silver~
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